T-Tapp + Primal 21-day Challenge: Day 2

2 Dec

Worked out first thing this AM (ok, it was 11am whatever haha) and feel GREAT.

T-Tapp:
It really does feel good. But it’s freaking hard. And I’m sore. Two more days? Hope I can do this! The plan is to workout 4 days in a row, then every other day for the remainder of the 21 days and re-measure. I even made a cheat sheet in Illustrator of the moves since I’m so poor and can’t afford the $30+ for the DVDs. I’m very good at maintaining form (hello YEARS of Yoga/Pilates) so I think I got that portion down-pat.

Primal eating:
Oh Mark Sisson. How am I supposed to get outside for 15 minutes when it rained the whole damn weekend? And play with my beautiful 3 year old? She’s all about daddy right now. And I’m working a lot. Whew! Why am I doing a challenege in December again? Oh yeah, I have lost all my marbles. I remember now.

Breaky:
Scrambled eggs on top of Sprouts no-crap-added pork breakfast sausage with butter, olive oil, coconut oil, spinach, bell peppers, green onion and garlic.
A gluten-free chocolate chop cookie and one gingerbread cookie. I stopped myself though of course, I wanted more.
Coffee with honey and half-and-half

Lunch:
Might skip it. So much to do today!

Dinner:
A shrimp pesto artichoke and spinach sauté with cauliflower rice.

T-Tapp + Primal 21-day Challenge: Day 1

1 Dec

T-Tapp Basic Plus Workout:
My first workout took twice as long as it should have taken. Understandable, as I am being cheap and doing it from the book and free internet clips. It. Is. HARD. I’m pretty sore today but looking forward to it? Weird. That like, never happens. But I am DETERMINED to shrink a bit before the end of the year.

Primal eating:
Went a bit off the rails. Had some honey in my coffee (yes, I did today too!). Gingerbread cookies. Not the gluten-free variety either. We decorated our Xmas tree yesterday. So that means I had… you guessed it. Wine. It was a great evening. I even made a handmade decoration, listened to the Nutcracker. Life is good.

T-Tapp + Primal 21-day Challenge: Ramp Up

26 Nov

Oh here I go again! Are you excited? Here’s a run down of what I’ve tried in regards to diets/workout plans. I’d say I have had a interesting journey so far, and I think my thyroid hates me.

As you might have guessed, I’ve been struggling with weight loss since about 13 when I decided I was fat. I wasn’t, mind you. I looked like a typical 13 year old losing that last bit of pre-teen chub. My mom said I was beautiful. Boys were really noticing me. But no, I didn’t have big boobs (something I love about myself later in life, who needs that backache?) and NO my size jeans weren’t 8, more like 12. A BIG DEAL to a 13 year old. And a 25 year old… who wore mens jeans size 38. This is where the real journey started.

Weight Watchers 2005:
Lost 75lbs and hit goal in 2007. Size 20 to size 10-12.
Had a baby in 2009, gained it *all* back.

Tried Weight Watchers again in January 2011:
Lost NOTHING. Size 20.

Tried Paul McKenna’s “I Can Make You Thin” in March 2011:
Lost about 5 pounds. Size 20.

Tried calorie counting via MyFitnessPal until around December 2011:
Lost nothing. Was starving. Size 20.

Gluten-free transition April 2012 when I discover Mark’s Daily Apple:
Lost maybe 5 pounds. Look like I lost more, my sister says… Size 18.

Whole30 August 2012:
Complete utter fail. Never finished one and never will. I love dairy too too much. Sorry.

Primal 21 Day Challenge September 2012:
Lost nothing but looking better, feeling amazing. Lost a few inches off my waist and pants fit better. Dropped a size since I transition to gluten-free. I like the Primal program the best so far. Size 16-18. Workouts consist of kettlebell routines, bodyweight workouts and lots of walking. Some sprinting as well. I think Mark is a genius.

Harcombe Diet in October 2012:
Lost nothing. Size 16-18. Phase 1 is a detox for 5 days. No caffeine, dairy, sugar, processed foods and even some vegetables (potatoes and mushrooms). Will never do a super-low-carb diet ever again. Even just 5 days of it. I was EXTREMELY tired and moody. Felt very deprived and ended up binge eating on the 6th day after discovering I lost nothing. The book claims you’ll lose 5-10 pounds the first phase which is 5 days. Stupid me paid 8 bucks for the Kindle version and felt stupid for believing it! I wish I could throw the book out the window. But it’s the Kindle version. Delorted!

Now?
Primal 21-day Challenge + T-Tapp workout bootcamp thingie:
This T-Tapp book sure has lofty claims as well. But as you can tell… I’m willing to try anything. This one is meant for people with auto-immune issues. Highly rated and even an awesome infomercial on PBS. We will see what happens, stay tuned.

The woes/wonders of the freelancer

25 Jul

In case you all (hahaha I like to think I have a readership!) didn’t know, I freelance for a living. It’s not easy. I love it, I love working in my own home, I love making my own hours. But I do have to put up with clients who are less then knowledgeable about how websites work or how they should be designed. I guide them gently, and most are gracious about it. Oh and not to mention, I am not an “expert” per say, but like to think myself a seasoned professional. My time with Apple.com designers taught me a lot. I’ve been doing this awhile. Like, before the year 2000, to give you an idea. I was barely out of high school and working at an agency in Irvine, CA.

I recently had a client that I found was becoming increasingly difficult to work with. I should have known it’d be that way– they even had the nerve to underpay me slightly. But I figured the consistent work would make up the difference.

I think I did some really great work for them. I know I did in fact, because my layouts/designs are still featured on the website. You will see an example below but to keep it real, I won’t show the company name/logo as that would be unprofessional.

After the very first project, they sent HUGE emails of changes, additions, edits. I thought “wow they are so organized!” at first, then found it was nit-picky rigamarole that was making me insane and in my opinion, most of the changes did not look great. For example, I would not use a bright orange color with a soft pastel color scheme. But that’s just me. In the end, my design usually changed so entirely, I started to wonder why they even bothered sending me projects. And they said they were satisfied most of the time and sent more work my way. I started to think maybe they weren’t happy with what I was doing. I was very good at communicating with them and just thought, ok, they are just REALLY nit-picky. So be it. To each his/her own.

I sure felt like I was on a Project Runway reality show with this client. I kept saying in my head “One day you are in… Then next, you’re out!” and wondering then how unfair that Hedi Klum had FOUR kids back to back and is to date the hottest mom ever. Genetics and money I guess.

Where was I? Oh yes. So this client ends the contract after some “inconsistent” quality of work from me. Not only was I completely insulted about the supposed reason, I didn’t think it was accurate. They could have been more professional and saved some face– said, “We want to work with someone else who is more available”. If I was in that situation, I would have kept it on the positive in that way. They could have communicated these “issues with quality of work” with me weeks ago. I worked over SIX months for them. They said nothing. Just sent crazy long emails and expected it not to take an eon to work all their changes in. Apparently they were sending me projects as a test to see if they wanted to keep me as a contractor. Total Reality TV here. Really though? It was so super frustrating!

So it’s been a month or so. I’m googling around and find a website talking about a launch of a new page– and wow the styling looks almost EXACTLY like the last page design I did for this client. Wow. I was doing such a terrible job. That’s why they used my designs. Totally. This so completely irks me.

Ok vent </end>. Next time, I am going to be more picky about putting up with clients even if it’s consistent work. This ended up being a huge waste of my time and I could have been working with some more reasonable people at a better rate. Like I am currently. Take a look below for the page design I am talking about…

Here is the “new” page design, although, the design is not very NEW. They even used a purple color I tried on the first project I did for them. I’m guessing the new designer went the same direction.
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Here is my design, which no, isn’t my best work. But after it being changed over and over again, this is what the result was. Strikingly familiar isn’t it? Le Sigh. You cannot please them all, I guess…
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10 things that I’m gonna do… list. Srsly!

23 Jun

Ooh a list… I just love lists. Here’s 10 things I’m going to do. And soon. I’ll blog about each one (maybe?) and you can comment and make fun or say something witty about how awesome my list/task is. I mean, why don’t I write on here anymore? I need a silly stupid post (or 10) about something every once in a while. My blog used to be me bitching about how hard it was to be a SAHM and an Attached Parent. Then I decided no one cared! And why should they? Now my blog is about being fat. Because I’m obsessed with losing weight that refuses to leave my body already. Or about wine/food. Of course…

My Whole30 was a bit of a joke. I was just sipping wine tonight thinking about WOW how I could NEVER give this up. Not even for a month. “I might be pregnant next month. So eff that.” I say to myself. That’s pretty dumb. It really makes me feel like garbage anyhow. But I SO look forward to having some whenever I can. Oh yes, I do.

A list of stuff I want to do: (somewhat realistic, that is)

1. Infuse KettleOne vodka with something tasty. Like blood orange from the farmers market.

2. Make coconut flour pancakes that make me like pancakes. They really don’t do anything for me.

3. Sew the toddlers’ long sleeve shirts into shortsleeves rather then the cut off white trash version. It’s for the summer and to play in mostly. They are ill fitting being 3 sizes too small. I’m thrifty like that.

4. Do something with this sad mop of hair. It was a cute cut until the blowout needed to be washed. Now it’s a frizzy mess. WTF?

5. Join a wine club. Oh please, can I cram this into our already (overspending) budget? Someone help!

6. Exercise for a week straight without stopping because of extreme soreness or groin injury from first attempt at sprints. Really tho?

7. Do just ONE pull-up. Just ONE. 

8. Write more on this blog about important stuff like lists of things I’ll never do.

9. Lose 20 pounds by December so I can gain it ALL back in December once pregnant. Pointless?

10. Eat Paleo/Primal. Stop. Eating. Junk! Track results somehow? People say “You look great” how can that be? I lose nothing on the scale. My measurements, the same. Strange?

Weight-loss Woes

13 Jun

Will I *ever* lose any substantial amount of weight? Or do I just need to accept myself the way I am? You’d think that giving up grains, most sugar, processed foods and now dairy would have told the body to do something. Nope. I’ve been gaining and losing the same goddamn 2-3 pounds every month. It’s getting old, let me tell you.

Here’s some background on the body I once had. I miss it dearly…

Weight-loss woes

In 2005 I headed to a Weight Watchers meeting and was impressed. I signed up. I lost 75 pounds. It took a damn near 3 years to do it. But I did it. Then in 2009, I got pregnant. Miscarried at 8 weeks along. Was devastated. Wanted a baby even MORE. Got pregnant again, it took. She is now 2.5. I still weigh the same amount I did when I gave birth to her.

After being diagnosed with Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, I started to see what my thyroid was (and was not) doing. And that was regulating my body weight. I was eating as little as 1500 calories and lost nothing. And we are talking 6 weeks of HARDCORE calorie counting. I then decided to ditch the iPhone App madness and eat a paleo/primal diet. I love it, I must say and don’t think I’ll ever return to grains. I’ve been cutting dairy out, significantly in the last 2 weeks. I drink my tea/coffee with no sugar. No splenda. No stevia. Straight up. The indulgences I partake in are (you guessed it) wine in the evenings (not every evening!) and dark chocolate. I did this on Weight Watchers for 3 years. I drank heavily back in my mid to late 20s. I lost the weight then. What GIVES?

“You just need to exercise!” Ooooh of course I do. Yes. Well I’ve been walking/biking every day, run after a 2yo, go hiking on the weekends. What’s that then? Isn’t that exercise? It’s exactly the kind Mark Sisson (Mark’s Daily Apple) suggests here. Why can’t I just lose a few pounds? I go down a pound or two, but only when I’m not ovulating and the obvious menses. I seem to weigh less right BEFORE menses. But all in all, the same weight. Day after day, week after week, month after month. I give up! (not really, just love to complain about it. Shake my fist at the sky, that sort of thing).

Will a cross-fit type circuit training really work for me? Will sprinting even ONCE a week break my bodies’ love affair with extra belly flab? Any suggestions, people?

Whole 30 Challenge: FAIL

9 Jun

So wow. I couldn’t even do it for 5 days straight!!! I cheated pretty much the entire day yesterday. I had a great day however.

We had the best best BEST family day. First, we tried a new restaurant that had the most delicious sandwiches, salads and burgers. I was being a good girl and ordered a salad with no cheese. Balsamic dressing. Then my DH got the burger, no cheese either. Fruit instead of fries. Well– our food came and the salad was MASSIVE and so delicious. But guess what? I noticed right away that the balsamic dressing was the creamy variety and the best tasting balsamic I’ve had in A LONG TIME. So I scarfed that salad so fast my DH barely got any. Ha. Then his burger came with fries. NoooooOoOOoOOOooooo! Oh you know I wasn’t about to sit there and not just have… one. I had a few, for sure. But stuck to my salad. Even had an iced tea with lemon and no sugar that was super tasty and refreshing!

Next, we took an 3-4 hour hike in a beautiful regional canyon park near where we live. Wowza. It was amazing and a great workout. After that, we were craving our favorite gastropub downtown and wanted to head to the weekly street fair/farmers market thereafter. Well– guess what? I had chicken satay which has a peanut sauce. But I was good and didn’t slather in the sauce and after that, a few glasses of wine and burger sliders. No bun, no cheese however.

Once we hit the farmers market we were bombarded with vendors and samples. I had some sugar then, of course. Le Sigh! At least we walked some and hiked all day. But still, I had *many* things on the list that I shouldn’t have had. The second day in a row now… I should just quit, shouldn’t I?

Maybe not, now that I am writing this. I ate almost entirely Whole30 compliant this morning. Am having my tea with no sugar. But I have an itchy feeling I’ll be hankering for a glass of vino to compliment my herb crusted roasted chicken, no doubt. And this isn’t fair to say I’m doing a “Whole 30 Challenge” when I’m really *not* am I? I can stick to it most days of the week. But I’m feeling deprived and know my vino days are heading to an end as we will be trying to have another baby soon.

Le Sigh. I’m just not ready.

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